I would like to become tolerant without overlooking anything, persecute no one even when all people persecute me; become better without noticing it; become sadder, but enjoy living; become more serene, be happy in others; belong to no one, grow in everyone; love the best, comfort the worst; not even hate myself anymore. —
- Elias Canetti (via The Happiness Project)
Things I am working on today: asking for help, not saying sorry, being okay with falling.
I recently discovered #studyspo is a thing and I am dyinggggggggggggg.
Where was this when I was in high school and college damnit.
29 vegan meals.
29 green smoothies.
29 pushups (a day).
Birthday celebrations were beautiful and I feel so loved. Time to cultivate that love into something greater within.
In the past two weeks, I have had two close friends stun me with the amount of love they have for me. I learned of one’s reaction when she learned I was reapplying for grad school and how another has been enlisting her church to pray for Troy’s health weekly, a person they’ve never met.
I cried at both. It’s like 27 was when I learned not to loathe myself so much and 28 was when I stopped trying to change “flaws.” But 29 — I feel good about 29. I spent the previous years shedding the baggage and now I am starting this journey where I really, really love myself and having these friends love me just as much made my heart swell. I used to only see the give and take and the need for equality — but I am seeing that beautiful people give and I am beautiful and I am loved.
Crooning Marvin Gaye tributes live here. Mmm, perfection.
Update: The spoken word performances touching on some MAJOR racial issues, Michael Brown, #dontshoot — they are so.on.point and it is just so, so powerful. There’s so much love and so much truth going on, my heart is going to explode.